Thursday, October 28, 2010

the halloween cat

my little tribute to cleo:

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

remember me

july 25th, 1990 - october 26th, 2010
beloved cat

Sunday, October 24, 2010

work less, live more

lately i've been feeling particularly resentful that i have to spend so much of my life working for this place called r*nfrew. it's not that i don't like my job, it just feels wrong that in order to support myself, i have to devote nearly half of my waking hours to this one type of thing.

so rather than complain about it, my new mission is to figure out ways to minimize my work while at work. i will still do everything that is required of me plus anything else i want to contribute professionally, but i will be more efficient in my handling of the work, thereby increasing time for other pleasurable activities. here is how i am planning to acheive this goal:

1) only check voicemail and email twice a day - once in the morning, once in the afternoon. and when i check, reply to all messages immediately - don't put them off until later.

2) get done what needs to get done promptly and quickly - clean up after groups, write notes right away and don't let anything pile up on my desk.

3) don't waste time on the internet at work. if i have time to spare, engage in satisfying activities like reading, writing, taking a walk, art, stretching, calling someone, working on personal projects, etc.

i am going to start right now by walking over to the environmental center.

ps. just got back from my walk. didn't make it all the way to the environmental center, but the path to get there was beautiful - snake black trees with sunny leaves. even more exciting though, i was turning back into the driveway as one of the counselors was turning out and i got my first spontaneous "are you pregnant?"!!! that was freaking awesome!

family fun

after a shift of bagging bean soup mix, raisins, dried cherries and tamari almonds with an architect in the basement of weaver's way coop, i met kristin and family over at linvilla orchards. we ate cider donuts, went on a hayride and sat around a campfire with lots of kids and adults torching marshmellows. october's blood moon loomed high in the sky.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

egon schiele lives!

spent my day off painting lenya's portrait in the style of egon schiele, something we have been wanting to do for the better part of decade.

i'm not sure he would have labored so much over the face and this would definitely be a tamer schiele than many, but i think i did a decent job imitating his style.

Sunday, October 17, 2010

biking with b and d

went for a pleasant ride with danielle and brendan yesterday. don't we look cute in our biking gear?

i just can't believe i am going to be somebody's mother. this makes me overwhelmingly happy.

Monday, October 11, 2010

fantastic reality

continuing prep work for the bourgeois review. finished reading the collection of her writings and interviews destruction of the father / reconstruction of the father and would have finished the text in LB if i hadn't left it at work. reading essays by lucy lippard and rosalind krauss reminded me of art history classes at oberlin with pat matthews. read the introduction to another volume that critiques her work from a feminist psychoanalytic perspective. that just made me want to read melanie klein and start making references to "part objects" during team meetings.

tomorrow my plan is this: i wake up with a positive attitude. i watch the film again in my pajamas, taking copious notes, transcribing relevant quotes, paying close attention to form and structure and generally formulating an informed opinion about the work. i head out for either a walk, a run or a bike ride, depending on the weather and my mood. i shower and put on clothes that remind me of college. i walk to infusion and write the rough draft of my review. if so inclined, i treat myself to a vegan treats brownie or a bubble tea, if they can make me one without caffeine. by that time luca and samara should be home, so i will surrender to the whims of the evening, putting aside the review for at least a day.

i hope i can make this interesting!

Thursday, October 7, 2010


today i called hr to inquire about benefits and maternity leave. apparently, since i did not elect short term disability last year, it is unlikely that i will be approved for it this year since my pregnancy would be considered a pre-existing condition. so if there is a reason that you will need to actually use short term disability, they won't give it to you, but if you don't expect that you'll need it, you are likely to be approved. does that sound kind of backward or what? looks like i'll be saving up pto and sick time so i can take a reasonable maternity leave in the spring. no christmas break for me this year. :(

Friday, October 1, 2010

when i learn to live serenely

since i have developed a recent terror of storms - specifically, a fear that gusty winds will cause the dead sycamore in front of our house to come crashing down either on the house itself and into our bed or on my car - i have of course been unable to sleep since about 2 this morning. i am probably instilling a phobia of storms into my unborn child as i type this. finally got up to check the weather and read more about louise bourgeois when i found two lovely little emails from bryn with audio recordings!

the recording i have been trying to post for several hours now was the song we used to sing at the end of every day at new england music camp. peace of the river... maybe i'll sing that to little smoky at night time. the other fear i'm probably energetically transmitting is that of looking forward to so many things that i'm afraid i won't get to experience.

from the hills i gather courage
visions of the days to be
strength to lead and faith to follow
all are given unto me